The one that loves you more

Dont Scared dont scared! Haha.

After realizing it wasn't a "clock!" Saw that emotionless smile to a real one. Look at you! Smiles. Hope you love everything.

Thanks love, vintage gold watch's mine. Winks.

So it's been a year. Goodness how time really files. Well, it has been a marvellous one with my love. The times we share and the troubles we go through. Not all can understand. The special moments, there is really too much to word but just thinking about the times together, non stop and even if we do not meet we are so much in contact. Almost everything reminds me of her.

Thanks love and may we strive to be better as I know there is so much more to think of in our very young but growing relationship!

Couple of dates for this special day and because there is too much to do in just a day we had a couple of days to celebrate it. Since there might be too much to blog, words will express it in this case.

Locations: Novena(lunch), Marina(Flyer), East Coast(cycling), TRCC/school(Refelctions 08' "MUSE" Dance performance.)

All with Extra love, with love. Heh.

How and when did I ge the tickets for the surprise? Heh. Shh...

Not forgetting the hand made tissue pouch, a small and nice gift.

The effort for all mini hearts you made, the wooden pieces and all, appreciated.

When the crowd seem so unfirmiliar, you came and made it our own into this comfort zone. My directions seem to be a blur, you held my hand through and even if we ended up a little lost, we realize we werent because I had you in my arms. At the crossroads, it will not be a decision of one but 2.

It doesnt have to be a ring, a necklace nor a poem - it just does need you and I.

Sun's the constrast

It's the 1st time cycling with baby on the 5th of Nov part of our one year celebration. Super funny moments and we actually cycled for almost 4hrs str. East Coast to part of Changi and back to the end near Fort Road. Fulfilling day it was. Smiles.

She could cycle pretty well too, bluff me that she is bad at it. Heh. Shall blade the next time so I could hold her throughout and keep her in my arms once in awhile. But when that time comes I guess she will be keeping me from falling as of now I still lack the knowledge on blading, argh. Thanks anyways, love for creating every moment to be a lesson learnt positively and for us to experience different moments together to eventually learn if we can cope with our differences. Tight hugs and you know the kiss will be given even if you do not ask for it.

Love could be the letters of her name.

Not a surprise, not a long time coming, not stopping.

Finally the month to the word Year.

Happy one, my love.

Every step was cherish, it will be out of line to say I cherish our misunderstandings but it taught me more about myself and you have made me stronger.

In the stages of making myself the best for you and also the better me for everything, you will still be my motivation.

Thank you for being that cheeky girl coming cross my path to stop me and make me think and realize you were right infront of me.

Thank you for all the time, effort and most importantly love.

Thanks for your care and thoughts, your not being selfish to sharing, for me to be part of you.

You know I love you more.

Smiles and tight hugs.

5000kg of

I have been wanting to blog out so much that I have missed out or forgotten to blog what I have intended to.

Otk Fest - Big thanks to my love who has been the one beside me through it all even if I had friends there, the security is with her and I hope it is the same for her. I had made a stone out reaction at one point of the night. Giving it a miss towards how she would react to a guest having a little too much alcohol running in his blood stream. I just knew she was stronger and to me she is still and will ever be strong. My reactions or my not reacting might not have spoken well of me but I remain the shield for what I can withstand. Not only a big thanks to her for that, it is for her generousity for calling her friends, close ones or not so close or not at all close ones too, including my friends. I expect no appreciation given to her much but baby, you should know you are the best in helping Swiss Club while you are not even paid.

Apart from it, I feel the feelings of hate and glances of unhappy faces. It is expected in the world of earning money and in an event like this, silly politics still managers to arrive. To get it off the still-calm chest, I feel that there is no right for trash talk nor pissed of waiters for not having the opportunity to do bartendering. Even if it is because you did it a year before does not mean you will secure it for the next. No business at all to me if you are that easily taken over. Anyways, blowing up an acute matter is not worth my while. To clear the air, Dalvin and Daryl were chosen as there's no size shirts for them and they pour beer just as good. Keegan was asked by the manager maybe because he was more outstanding than you. For me, I was picked out right from the start at least 2 to 3 weeks prior and I damn right worked for it. Side note to how I feel, no offence taken or given. Any President this year might not be one in the next unless he has the competency to avail.

Money - Sensitive issue. By right it is not everything but in other words it is. Irony you call it but the truth that sustains it this way. I would personally like to indulge in the thought that it is not eveything. Yes it isnt, it can't buy back the past, neither the dead nor the memories and a whole load of priceless sentiment. On the other hand, I believe it can buy happiest maybe not true ones but it still has the ability to. People work, steal, die, rob, dream and whatever more just to have it and return it back to the world when spent. Sadly to me it is what we need, it is everything that seems to make this world a "better" place. Cause if we had it all wouldnt it be luxurious with nothing much at all to worry about? Still I cant or do not want to accept the fact it's everything - it is just not. Have we totally lost our minds maybe even being bought over by it while we are at it working towards it? Where's our dignity and pride when we meet it face to face? Does the actions and feelings of Love cost so little even if it is in terms of billions, we strike the good to become the bad with it. We now buy people's actions and we buy the smiles on your faces, what happened to unconditional love, for it we lose trust and we still have the guts to proclaim "trust no one." Enough said for now. But if I can change a few minds on this I am delighted enough.

I may be of no position or status to prove or exert but, "The only proverty I see in all of us even if you are a multi millionaire is your bad langauage of Money talk."

A late Saint said for my country, Singapore - "The Proverty of Singapore is that there is no Proverty." There is no feelings I can feel to have the same thought of a Saint.

The piano stops playin

A year has gone by. Life's grew older, shorter and happier?

I reckon it is again my turn to feel and reflect on what I have been up to. Nothing bascially and nothing could be the reason I can feel so useless at times. I can see the good that I have done yet I can see that I have chose to lay back not to do more. It has nothing to do with fate, it has nothing to do with destiny and I think we should all cut that crap. We have got free will and the will is dictated by the limitations we have and dont, that's it. We do so much to feel good, to feel that we are worth it, to feel beautiful and it does not mean a thing if you are doing that in the expense of others. If I said you are stupid just to feel smart, if I was taller and stood to a person shorter just to make him feel shorter or say I should have been up there not him, who's he? He doesnt even look good then my friend, my unfortunate self denying human begin, you are simply all wrong. There's a mirror made to reflect, reflect our true self hidden. There's nothing for you to try and hide. But it comes right back at you and all the time crusing, the time complaining and gossiping has ended.

We are taken by others so easliy that it pains to me to be one of them. Knowing for the fact we need to meet our individual self but we are just scared, afraid of that ugly creature, unpleasant character and stinky smell of envy and hate. Enveloped in fear and drenched in tears, we fear so much. So we need it, need it to get away, further but it traces back. Strong yet too weak, hard but yet so brittle. Healthy but yet an acute infection can kill. - Superman does not have to die, he was never alive.

So many things to live for yet so little time, dont get me wrong I think I am still young but I dont feel like growing up. Mandatory I understand. Nothing gets through to all of us and money is moster that tears and rips yet we are working to get it, waiting to recieve it to an extend to kill and forget for it, my what a friendly monster ever made. Sank into material, forgetful of Love, sweat to beat and bled to die.

Can I be strengthen within myself, for I only know who I am. No man is an island, we made that up.

We seek to be this island but it needs no man. Because if the world has no consquence the world will no longer be that round ball of blue, white and green but RED. Put aside and place no limits to control what you cannot.

One year, one year ago I gave up part of my silly escape. We are the failure of how we failed, begining with empty talk. Pity, just like you but not a pity, not like me.

We dont need wings to fly.

Let's play a game, look me in the eyes and tell me without spoken words, how much you know about me? Then tell me out loud what you truely know about me? Let me know if you know my heart beat. I didnt want you number just wanted you to com'er. Loser - just dont know you. Winner - leaves me alone and keeps one's judgement.

Price - Better virtues.

My Weds which are School-Free, well spent with love. We chilled, caught a movie and went for more painting. Hope she enjoyed much. Headed down to Novena one of those days, had a walk around and I found that it was a pretty cool place to chill back and feel alittle away from the buzzy crowd just a few stops away, town. Muffins there too are tempting. Had KFC and walked around. Cutton On Craze somehow is on for my love, she got me a cardigan there and she got a couple of buys too. Once, we left our painting there only to realize it back at Amk station, we had to head back as soon as that meant a lot, the time adding colours and sitting there side by side giving time for it to turn out colourful and nice, it has my name on it too. Thus, I went rushing down except in the train which I had no control of but once out, I ran out (been awhile running) and yes I got it back thanks to kind sales fella.

Caught Mamamia last Wed after a morning/afternoon stay over @ baby's. It's a great show, how the muscial best fit the plot, it was good'ol kinda movie with a pretty stroyline attached to it. The soundtracks though old school music, it was addictive. Baby headed over to my place last Sat, we loaded lyrics and youtube and started singing together! It is so diff to get her to sing and she used to be in school chior! It was cosy and it was pleasantly sweet to hear her sing out, now I dig that movie twice as hard. Ha.

Before all of that on Sat, she accompanied me to SSDC, thanks baby for you constant support always waking up early to be there for me. Yes. On for Lunch at City hall's NYNY, her lovely treat. Yum yum. My nose was a little runny but it did not really stop me from hanging out with her. My intention was to bring her to have alittle sight of F1 and to get a little sound check to how loud it can be. Only able to hear the blast of engines from the formula one cars and we headed to Gardens, finally Aston's for her have been telling her about it but most of the time we caught it close, though I feel there's a drop on standards it's good enough for occasional visits. Back to my place for Vantage point, was really sleepy but I caught most of the show, liked how they broke the situation down and brought it back to give a pretty alright ending to it. Finally, before Baby made her way back before it got later, she pat Duchess this two girlfriends of mine made friends. Phew. Haha. Love you baby we are still so so so young in this route of relationship but you are just impossible to .... go figure. Smile.

No frog to a prince but wont you be mine?

My love.

Night or day we'll still wait.

Singapore, our little young country making it big once again, in the history books of F1 racing, first Night race and the first in Singapore with a route with pretty more bents than the usuals. I got a chance to be part of it on Friday. Oh how it was a awesomely cool experience. Along with my Uncles, aunt and cousin. I had entry to the Grandstand which was a stright course but with one bent in and one tight bend out. There the craze was getting to me, it was packed up with enthu people, families, kids, workers and pure excitement in the air for the trial runs. Before the F1 cars it was some other racing ones racing around the circuit. Had a close view as I headed down neaer to the barriers, it was a sound decision to head down on my own as watching the race from up the 45th row at the 30 plus laps left can be alittle tiring after a whole day of school to add in thus, walking around added a little race rush into me. Ear plus how I under estimated the sound, it was deafening at that range of high decibles, good enough I stuck those in. Nice time and I watched the race on Sunday itself with my family and baby betting with me on Hamilton while me on tragic Massa though I wanted Alonso, I still win. Ha.

It was a race pretty filled up with good drama, Massa had his fuel pump line still injected into his tank which cost him 1st to practically last with a easy chuckle by the rest of his opponents, I am guessing and a few Crashes. I thought the race will be just a simple chase race, but with all the safety car in lap, demerit/penalty points, pit stop seconds and such. Wow it was assuming and exciting. Lastly, to actually know I was sitting so near to that tight turn was great stuff, it always catches the drivers to make a little mistake or over shooting into the land or to make strategic driving of stepping on trottle or brakes to pull through.

Singapore Singapore Singapore, awesome event making this Red Dot shine even more. Imagine Play station and Xbox F1 games having Singapore Circuit to unlock and such. Hey there is Esplande and Marina bay in the game, totally rocks, Proud citizen all of a sudden, dont mind.

Inverting equation.

It has to take more than words to mean it, because my actions animate me too.

The world will never know the true me, with my crooked way for finding peace, because sometimes to get across to you leaves me contradicting.

Because you mean more than I can express myself to you with limitations I will overcome.

And will you ever know? I guess I will leave myself to allow me to.

A treat to my family after a little sum of cash earned during the tiring yet fun Okt Fest @ Swiss Club which lasted for three nights 18th, 19th and 20th. Sure it was tiring as baby, my friends and I had to school lessons to attend for the weekdays and we started from about 5pm to 1am on average. Dinner after evening mass one Sunday, Prata it was at Casurina Curry House.




I was quite a feast, must be because it is my treat. I would like to thank baby for me having to treat them as well. Without my baby's help in getting contacts for Swiss Club, they would have at least 1/2 the manpower they need.

Baby and I. Coupon girl and the Bartender. More or less right infront of her, caught her looking at guys, wells she caught me too at looking at girls, but I didnt. Oops.

Pippy: Hey baby, I'm here. By the way I caught you looking at so many other girls esp the beer girls and cacausians! Argh, punch you. Anyway I got to look at everyone because I need to collect coupons. Hugs you. Only you in my eyes >_< ( There she comes into my blog and try to defend herself, nonsense she like some guy from SP. Help!) Haha.

Worked together with three other friends, two pretty close friends but I had a history with all and it was great recalling those moments. Times like these gives this only the chance to bond back alittle, after it was all back to our busy little lives. But it was nice dancing and singing around and of course non-stop beer pouring during peak crowd period.

Moon Cake Fest with Family and Baby.

Family was a little celebration lighting latents at home. My mum and sis checked out what was going on at the Chartwell Park but to their disappointment it was nothing exciting. But we still litted up all the latents we had, which was about four to six of them. Baby came to join after her swim, accompanied her for dinner at Chomps and decided on walking Duchess, goodness baby is really very scared of her. Was a tough time not holding baby for awhile, kinda like so near but yet so far but it was my first walk with both baby and duchess, will be more after she gets use to it, yeah. Macs for ice cream, chat up with my mum and sis who came back after their snacks at the market. Thanks dad for sending baby back thereafter.

With baby, it was on a Sat to Marine Parade first time there walking around with her. Recalled some of my secondary memories to her, crazy times I skipped lessons just to head over there for Burger King's Breakfast and such. To East Coast for some latents and candle play.

Not forgetting a little blowing of bubbles, the bottle which I got for her birthday. It was fun and the wind was strong enough to blow some of us. Created a whole group of bubble floating in the air, pretty amazing with this simple little creation from soap.

Have never done this painting when I was a kid and so it was my first with baby love. It was an kidish experience which was obviously great the feeling of a kid is really just free and easy trust me wanting to grow up to me isnt a thrill already, crap to N16 or M18 or wanting to drive, I would rather have no worries, driven and watching rated G cartoons for years more. For the first time, baby and I did a decent job at it, good stuff. Hope she didnt find the idea of bring her there too mad but I guess we did enjoy and have a good time just doing things which reminds us of childhood.

There's her with all the litted latents which was finally litted despite the strong winds. Despite all worries or temptations, you are lighted up never to be blown off.